You first met him when you, with a lot of courage and determination, asked your parents to send you to the music academy he was in. Your mindset was to do the best because you went through a lot just to persuade your parents to even listen to what you want.
You never notice any guys, or anyone to be precise. It was only you and music, with your parents pressuring you to do well or else you have to drop out. It was then that the biggest festival was to be held at your academy, the talent show where you have to show just about everything you have that you can shine out.
It was also then that destiny played a joke on you and chose you into the duo category.
"Duo?' you thought. What duo? You never even made an effort to get to know anyone during the 7 months. You were confident of doing a solo, having gained almost every of the academy trainers' praise and trust in your skills and hard work.
But no, not this time. You were chosen to have a PARTNER for the show, and to add to it, it's a GUY.
Not just any guy, it's Youngjae. People were rampaging over his good looks and intelligence, even for guys. "Great, a duo. With someone everyone other than I know of. Even if I manage to get pass through this duo thingy, I might have to drop out when the girls start to take out their knives, " you thought.
"Hey..Uh. ." you turned around and saw him bowing. "Hello. I'm Youngjae. You must be. .(your name)-ssi? I heard a lot about you from the trainers. I am actually honored to be partnered with you. ."
"Uhh, yeah. Hi. So, shall we get to our song then? I heard Diane arranged the instrumental for us."You cut him off, thinking that he talks too much even on the first meeting.
"Well, yes. But.. You know, maybe we should do some intro?'
Your eyes shifted. "You're Youngjae. You know my name. That's enough for an intro for now."
He let out a little uncomfortable laugh. "But, we need to get to know some stuff about each other. You know, build a little understanding towards each other? So that our musical side can blend well too. ."
It took quite some time for you two to be able to build some kind of friendship. It took some scolding from the trainers due to your lack of cooperation, trying to do everything yourself, the way you're used to. But Youngjae had it all in and tolerated well. He believes that both of you need to do well in order for this to work, and naturally you realised you had to concur with that.
[ after you and Youngjae's performance ]
Everyone had a blast. You thought it would be like the other tests you went through but this time, you actually had fun. You went down the stage after the judgements when Youngjae took a hold of your shoulder. "Hey..." He held you back. "Thank you. I couldn't have done this without you." He smiled. Apparently, you smiled back sincerely too. After the festival, your friendship starts to grow. You intended to leave it at that and do things separately but Youngjae chose to continue talking to you on a daily basis.
What you didn't know, or choose to ignore is that you actually had the mutual desire to continue your friendship too. For the first time in years of dedication to learn music, you finally met someone you are attached to emotionally.
At least you thought those 'emotions' are the normal ones between friends.
But no.
It was that.
A first love.
There were many firsts in your life happened when you started to know him.
He was the first one that made you realise you were living down a road too much to yourself all these years.
He was the first guy who waited for you for hours just to make sure you're safe.
The first to see you cry.
The first time you had felt what jealousy is, it was because of him.
The first one to make you feel something.
You felt pain without a reason for the first time.
That time, you chose to stay away. He realised your changes, but he tried to keep close to you. As time passes, you don't even talk to each other anymore. You felt foolish and assumed that the relationship you two had was nothing close to what you feel it was like to Youngjae. Now you can't even get used to doing things on your own, unlike how you used to.
[ The night before graduation ]
You had to leave for home because of some family issues. It's your graduation day tomorrow, so you have to get back to the academy that night. You pulled your bags inside , dragged them away when someone stopped you at your tracks.
" Here, I'll get the bags." Without saying anything, he took your bags and carried them inside the building. You wanted to say something and stop him, but deep inside you you were too happy to finally see him around. He returned after a few minutes and went towards you.
YJ: "It's tomorrow."
You:"E--mm.
YJ: "Mmm? Isn't there more you have to say to me? Like why you avoided me, and what you're planning to do after graduating. ." He stopped.
"And . .If we're ever gonna see each other again. .Will you choose to go your separate way. .?"
You: " We always did well on our own, Jae. The changes won't affect much. " You bit your lips, worrying that you might cry soon.
YJ: " There were too much changes you made to begin with. Did you realise that?"
You:" Me? Is it all me? Jae, you are the one who forced me to do this!"
You weren't making any sense. You took a few steps backwards, with your head down, ready to run away soon.
He turned around, back-facing you. Your tears were no longer endurable. You turned around and took a step forward.
Nothing.
You took another step.
Still nothing.
You finally concluded that this is the clear end mark. Instinctively, you turned back.
A pair of shaking hands embraced you.
" I missed you." When he said the last word, his grip became tighter.
You :" Jae. .I. . We. . I thought. . My feelings went overboard. ."
YJ: " How far?"
Something struck you. You turned speechless.
You : "A little too far."
He turned silent. When one of you finally lets go, Youngjae speaks.
" I thought mine went further than yours." The silence turned into a moment of confusion.
YJ:" I guess. . . Now we're even. Pabo. Do I have to point this out myself?"
You: "What?"
YJ: " We like each other, is it?" You rolled your eyes. He continued while dragging you close to him.
YJ: " Well, it can't be only me liking you, is it? That's one point. "
You: " The other?"
YJ: " You choose. Date me. Or let me stalk you until you admit your feelings. "
You: " Option 3? I choose option 3."
YJ : " Fine." He took out a note and wrote down something. It wrote,
" OPTION 3: STAY BY MY SIDE FOREVER ."
Then it was another first for you.
A first kiss.
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