You survived this.
Even after struggling with your 7 years of one-sided love, those months you had to keep it in, still, while watching him embracing another's love..
And..
Survived the aftermath. At least for that night. Don't know if you should be proud over this.
You should be grateful that you will have the week after the media exhibition off. Being sleep-deprived over work, and all the other things going on, you should be on your knees crying out of gratitude to your boss who gave you one whole week rest( after much persuasion from your team leader, Yongguk ).
Unfortunately, the week before the exhibition is crawling oh so, very slow. Okay, you felt fine after one day of poster-making.
But posters aren't the only thing you are in charge of.
Correction, your specified TEAM. Which consists of you and Himchan, for this project.
Wonder if even the most painful of a word can describe what you are going through each passing day.
Wondered also if the upcoming occurrences are also something fate has to do with.
Gosh, glad there are only 2 days left until the exhibition.
Napping feels so good this time around.. I could be in dreamland, away from reality.
"WAKE UP!"
Dude, seriously? I thought I can finally meet someone in my dreams and get over you.
You: Oh.. You're here? *stretches arms and puts on glasses* You could have come in a little later.. We're almost finished with the rest of the paperwork..
HC: So you can nap off some more? Mmm-mm. *shakes head*
You: *eyes refusing to open completely* Hmm. Since I've done more than half of this myself , you should just go and finish it up. Wake me up if there's anything wrong.
Sleep.. Sleep........I need sleep.. I want sleep...
You stood up to move to the sofa.
Only to be grabbed back by Himchan.
Woops. You're strong enough to free yourself from his grip.
Your eyes are opening now. Halfway.
You: I promise to wake up for the last editing! Just try to finish this yourself first. There's not even that much left. Leave me and my sleep alone!
Lucky you. You probably, actually love sleep more than anything else. Guess sleep does knock you away from reality. The only way you can forget your depression and problems for a while.
BADOOPPP!!!(don't know if this is how slamming yourself to the sofa suppose to sound like)
Yes... Sleep... ZzZzZzZzZ....
"When you wake up, go get ready. I'm bringing you somewhere."
Eisshhhh. Even in my dreams, is every guy suppose to sound like him?
"Oi!"
Arms slapped.
Ey? I can now even feel pain in my dreams?
"Oi! [yourname]! Are you even listening to me? No matter how tired you are, how can you tell someone else to work on their own just because you drafted some things beforehand and sleep off like a dead body?"
Wait..I thought dreams are supposed to get rid of things like reality!
You: Huh?? *rubs eyes*
HC: Eish! Don't rub your eyes so hard! *pulls your hands*
You: *whines* Just let me sleep already! What? You can go on dates for hours and I can't even date my sleep?
HC: *sighs* Fine. Just! Make sure to wake up when I tell you to.
You: Fine.. Whatever.
Chose sleep over anything else. You deserve a standing ovation.
3 hours later... ( You call that a nap? Wow.. )
HC: Miss Sleeping Beauty. Oi. Miss Sleeping Beauty, wake up.
You: *mumbling in dreams*
HC: OII!
You: Fineeee. I'll wake up. My dream wasn't any prettier than reality anyway.
Wait. I can't even remember what I dreamt of.
HC: We can finish up tomorrow morning. Everything else is done, we only need to double-check some stuff
then we're good to go. Now, go .. Go fix your hair, put makeup or something and dress warmly!
You: Huh??? (whispering to self) Am I still dreaming?
HC: No you're not, [yourname]-ssi. Now, go go! We haven't got enough time for our date!
You: Date? Yah....... You're dragging me to your date? You're seriously too much! Uggh, you're not gonna bring me to double date with you, are you? That's so like you.. You're gonna be like ,*imitates deep voice* "Oohh I'm sorry so I found a guy who's gonna be better than me for you.." Blah blah.....
That was a bad joke. Oops.
HC: Not quite. You're wrong about some things. First. My girlfriend's not joining us. Second, it's not a double date. It's our date. Just you and me.
You gave him a look.
You: Are you on your cheesy mode again? Or are you just.. Crazy? *finger showing crazy sign* Huh? Stressed over work?
HC: Okay! I'll take that as a compliment. I'll be waiting outside in the car. Hurry up. I think Yongguk's going to call us in for a small meeting about the last preparations for the exhibition. See you.
You: Uggh! Even for a dream, isn't this too much?????!!
You got dressed anyway. Bravo.
Outside..
HC: Yah! Ppali!!
You: Alright, alright, I'm coming!
During the drive, not much is coming out from neither both of you. You kept asking him where you guys are headed to but all he does look at you for a second then turn back to the wheel.
If only you didn't nap for so long that evening, you could have killed your curiosity by sleeping in the car.
Your mind is too flooded you didn't even realise the car already stopped.
HC: We're here.
You: *dazed*
HC: Are you sleeping again?
You: Huh? No. No... Are we..
You looked outside the window and froze as you saw the building.
You: Why are we here?
HC: You said you want to go up to the 8th floor someday. With someone you like. Well, I thought maybe at that time you were thinking of me so as long as you still like me now, maybe I should bring you there.
You: Silly. You think I wouldn't get to like someone else and bring him here anytime soon? Merong!
HC: That's gonna be quite hard, isn't it?
You: ....
He knows too much about me. Darn it.
HC: Come on out.
Alright. Just come out. Maybe this is something you should enjoy while it lasts. Maybe.
There it is. The Han Cinema building. Entered through the Chungmuro Station. Now all you have to do is go to the 8th floor. Don't think you're here for a movie, anyway.
Wow... So this is how it looks like in here...
You cannot stop your eyes from scanning around this beautiful place even for a second.
A picturesque in the middle of a busy city. It's not even that hard to go here. Maybe you're just being stubborn refusing to go here alone. Very stubborn indeed. That wishful thinking of yours.
You: Pretty..
Smiles. It's been a while since you put on that sincere smile.
HC: Why do you really wanna go here anyway? You can go here anytime you want, plus it is a beautiful place but there won't be much to do here than just looking around,sitting and chatting..
You: What a joke. Tell me, if you come here with your girlfriend, would you even mind sitting and just lurking here for hours? Huh? Gosh.. How ungrateful.
HC: Guess you're right. Since it's getting darker now, everything looks prettier.
You: *looking up and smiling* Yeah... hmm. But it ruins my imagination to come here with you. Uggh!
You're not even my boyfriend! You're just.. A boy that is a friend.
HC: I'm special though, right? I guess that's the same thing. Hahaha! Okay, I'll be your boyfriend for today! :D
You: .....
HC: You know?
You: What? I know a lot of things.
HC: Haha. Yeah. Maybe you know this too.. Among all the people I know, you're the cutest one.
Aissh. Stop right there.
You were walking in front, followed by him at the back.
You: Yeah, I know that.
HC: And.. That I love you unlike any other.
You: Hmm. That too. Aren't there anything new you're gonna tell me? I know just so much.
Man. He shouldn't have brought me here to assist with his cheesy mode.
HC: And I can only be able to love you as much as that.
Your footsteps came to a halt.
Thought that the tears were dried enough.
HC: [your full name].
You: .. Mm-mm?
He didn't have to fulfill that part of your wishful thinking.
A back hug. No more control to your tears now.
One by one.. They are dropping.
You: You let me know too much new things today.
HC: Since I'm your special boyfriend for today.. You're suppose to expect things like this, aren't you? Hehe.
You wanted to feel the warmth a little more.
Okay. This much is enough for me.
You let go of his grip and turned around to face him.
You: No. Channie, no. You are not my special boyfriend. Not today, not until whenever.
HC: [yourname]-ah..
Wearing a laugh, your tears are still unstoppable.
You: Because if you are my boyfriend, even for only for today, we would still have to break up. I can't keep someone I broke up with as my friend. Also.. In my dictionary, there aren't anything like a 'getting back with ex-boyfriend' term. Haha.. We need to work! I see you everyday, it's gonna get ugly if you do this.
Even though maybe.. I do need something like this. Because maybe I cannot end anything if I haven't started something. Thank you.. Anyway.
HC: I'm sorry.
No.. Didn't I tell you to not say that word to me again?..
"Hey! Himchan! [yourname]! I knew you'd guys be here! Wow, what a great place! Maybe we should just tell Yongguk hyung to hold the meeting here, eh?"
Yongguk? Isn't that Dae's voice?
HC: Yah! Who told you to come here? With.. Youngjae? You little kids! What are you doing here?
[yourname]-ah, I'm sorry, I didn't...
You: No, it's okay. I'll wait in the car.
Hurry. Run.
There were no footsteps following behind you. You thought so.
You just ran so fast. Can't hear anything.
And that's it for now!! I'll leave the DaeJae situation to shipping.. XD I kinda changed my style a bit here so it's not too melo. No one likes continuous and endless melo. Haha. See you soon! Happy BABY-ing! :)
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