You froze. In fact, it seems as everything else did, too.
You can only see him and the little motions he makes to hold in his tears.
No. What am I doing?
You: Channie...
A few little steps towards him.
You: Don't cry.
Your hands automatically reaches his cold cheeks.
Then a little faster, you put your hands away reflexively.
Ultimately, you knew he himself cannot put in words what he's feeling right now.
Your fingers came into a fist, you swallowed a few times and you hear something echoing in your heart.
You know what to do. Stop procrastinating.
With your tears returning, not minding the crack in your voice,
You: I'm sorry. I'm. .So..Sorry..
Fate is just too cruel.
You: Channie..
Your mind played a flashback of every moment you spent together with him.
From the first time you entered the 6 guys house when your parents died in a car accident.
Met him. How arrogant, his visuals says so.
But no. He was as sweet as he can be. Being a subtle guy, he was known for being easily touched and sensitive about a lot of things.
He was so good to you. So, so sweet.
Because you need friends. He became a friend.
He should stay as a friend.
Throwing away the greed for more of his affections, you started to caress his hair.
You realised that you were always comforted by him this way, but you yourself never tried to comfort him in any way at all.
You: It just happened that way.
I won't ask anything from you.
That's the end.
My first love, my crush for 7 years.
It reached the end.
Like needles pricking your heart endlessly.
I can only end it when I choose to.
The moment you finally confessed, "I like you."
Full stop. Done. Nothing more to it. No reason to continue anyway.
Love comes slow but goes so fast. How true.How painfully true.
Wipe your tears.
You: Hahaha, Channie-yah! What in the world are we doing?
Laugh it off. Fight it.
You: The poster! Channie, the poster! Gosh.. This is beyond silly. Haha!! *pats his back*
.... Channie?
He lifted up his head and there it is. The dimple near his left eye, his eye smile. That charming smile.
He's also hiding his wet eyes.
By giggling.
HC: Oh, yeah..Yeah... Hehe. Hmm..
You: You think we can use this one for the background? *points to laptop*
HC: Mmm?
Cannot look at him.
You: This one. Oh, and the colour should be lighter because the walls are quite dark-coloured..
HC: Oh, right. No, take this one out. We can't put in too many words.
You: Kay. Wait.. Need to shade this part too..
You accidentally heard him breathing with a deep sigh.
HC: Are we... Okay?
'We'. He's questioning his calmness himself. Channie, I'm so sorry.
You: Hehe. If we try.
If we try hard and pretend.
Of course. Gosh, Channie. FOCUS!! *hits him*
... Ehehe. Sorry.
It took him a moment, as if hesitating, to let out another giggle.
And he suddenly put on a sulking face. Kim Himchan.. and his soothing humour..
HC: That hurts. *aegyo*
You: *hits harder* Serves you right. Now. FOCUS. *wide-eyed*
Traces of the tears. We're fine now. They're drying up.
That's probably the only thing there is to this. It's enough I said what I need to say. Our friendship, is more of a priority.
You can't leave anything awkward. Try harder.
Work progressed fine. Both of you are trying so hard, but eventually the two of you realised,
this needs time. You can try harder, but that will just end up in vain.
The only thing to do is let this go. Getting back to the casual you and him.. Needs time.
Silence took over most of that night.
Trying to laugh.. Trying to smile.. Trying to joke..
Nothing can be done to undo this. In fact, nothing should be done.
We need more time. We really do. We'll be completely fine. Later. Not now.
Note: Part 2 done! Gosh, it's short but it took so long because it would be weird if I progress the story like 'oh we're sad' and suddenly 'oh we're happy again'.. Get it? Hahaha. Sorry >_< I hope it turned out fine. . I tried to keep up the sad mood but in a way that they can progress. Okay, must try harder for the next part! <3
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